So, I may or may not have mentioned that I failed to ask my employer about my pay rate for the new job. Frankly, at the time it didn't much matter because this was the only job opening I found in the position I needed and I couldn't get a moment alone with him to ask not in front of the patients. Today, I finally got that opportunity and I found out.
The pay is not unreasonable, the fact is, I'm not doing much work, but I'm also not working enough hours to overcome that. In fact, this job will pay me less than $10,000 dollars a year, which is an especially big problem when you consider that just my rent and car payments/insurance add up to approximately $6,500 and that I'll be paying entirely out of pocket for health insurance (which last year cost around $8,000 for a year). What all this is adding up to is negative numbers.
And me resuming my teaching job.
This is not ideal, but it's also not the end of the world. Where I'm having the most trouble (besides all the groveling I just did to try and get my old job back, fingers crossed) is with this new job. The person I'm replacing is leaving mid-July, and they hired me under the belief that I'd be working most of the year. In reality, in light of the pay, I'm only going to be able to work for about a month, regardless of whether I get my old teaching job back or not, because that's when my paychecks stop and I'll need a job that pays more money.
So do I tell them now? My moral compass says yes, though my logical/fiscally concerned side says no. The moral side is winning right now. They should have the right to hire and train someone well, someone who will work for the entire year, someone who will be able to stay for a while. I don't think I can live with myself and go to work each morning if I know that I'm going to be handing in my 2 weeks notice, in um, like 3 weeks. It just doesn't jive with me. I know it's not a very wise decision financially, but I just think I can't live with myself otherwise.
I don't know when I'll hear back from my old job, but I'm likely going to speak with my new boss tomorrow. Is that a stupid decision? Probably, but in the end, I have to be able to live with myself and I know that my conscience won't let me live with this if I am not honest about it.
It's really sad because I really enjoyed what I was doing. Really it was a great first day. And it seems like probably a great last one too.